“The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker…Many pursue it into the gates of insanity or death.”
(Alcoholics Anonymous, 1939, 1955, 1976, 2001 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.)
This statement of course can be as true for any other substance as well if we have reached the point where we can’t enjoy it if we control it, and can’t control it of we enjoy it. Some call it “hitting bottom”, others refer to it as a “moment of clarity”, when the realization finally hits home that the drink or the drug just isn’t working anymore. The game is over.
What options are left once the realization has been made? We can no longer splash about in our own denial, oblivious to the consequences. Knowledge has ruined the bliss of our ignorance, and it has been a while since a drink or even heavy sedatives have calmed the conscience. Once a fun hobby, then a relaxing escape, now these substances are a desperate attempt to hide from ourselves. Continuing to drink and drug is always an option – but the fact is, it’s just not working anymore.
Quit? Just stop using, stop drinking cold turkey?* What if I get sick? I can’t go on without a drink, I can’t face the world without being high, I'll be bored out of my mind – the list can go on and on.
Valid fears and concerns, all of them, but they each have a solution. The good news is, none of us have to go it alone. Whether you think you can do it or not, give it a shot for 24 hours. And during that time, do the following things:
- -Write down 3 ways that your drinking or drugging are holding you back (ex.: career, school, relationships, finances, spirituality, etc) Be as specific as possible.
- -Write down 3 situations when your drinking or drugging has caused you or a loved one harm or distress
- - Write down 3 things that you have always wanted to do (Anything!)
- -Write down your feelings anytime you really want a drink or drug during the 24 hours, but don’t dwell on it. (something as simple as “I’m angry, I want to drink” or “I’m annoyed” – whatever is going through your head)
At the close of these 24 hours, many things will have been accomplished. Most importantly, a full day of sobriety has been established if you had not already stopped using. You have also begun to recognize some of the ways that your drug/alcohol use has been affecting you and those around you, and are gaining a better understanding of your situation. You will also have a clearer picture of your own obsession for your drug of choice, and perhaps even which emotions triggered those urges for you during that time, all helpful tools to have if you choose to remain on the path of recovery.
*If you have been drinking heavily or abusing prescription medications; you may be at risk for serious withdrawal symptoms and should seek medical attention.
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